There are some thing that I don’t understand in my life right now. A lot of mysteries. But I would rather have god in my life 24-7 and be happy not knowing opposed to knowing every single detail of how my life works out and be completely missable. Why do you even try to plan your life. God has plans for your life and his plans are the only one that will work. If you try to ignore gods plan you will crash and burn. Most from the start but we are always to blinded by the finish to see it failing from the start