I’ve had this written for about half a month now, yet I still haven’t posted it. I’ve actually haven’t written in months, since this anyways. For me this is a lot more vulnerable than anything I have ever spoken about. If it is or if it isn’t, to me it feels like it. So here is it, I just completely finished it.
Soooo… on Friday the 20th of October, during our regular worship service, I got delivered from a spirit of Pride. Spiritual Pride and arrogance that is. I didn’t have the kind of pride that boasted itself as “look at me, I’m better than you” but, it was the type of pride where I did that to God…. That sounds very bad and it is indeed very bad. I want to go on record and say that I didn’t set my heart out on purpose to do that, I didn’t know what I was even doing. All I knew was that something was off. The Spirit of pride is trying to earn God’s grace, and by doing such you put yourself in front of God because you’re simply not listening. That Pride will keep you in the same spot doing and saying the same things over and over again. You don’t have to earn God’s love, you just have to receive it and wait upon Him. You can’t make God do things, and you can’t make things happen. By thinking of such is prideful and sinful. At some point IF you are truly seeking God, that spirit will flee and you will get deliverance!
Walls, walls around your heart. Walls to keep people out. Walls to keep God out.
Why do you kick against the goads? Kicking the wall will not make it fall down, Kicking the wall, well you’ll just break your foot. Once you see what your doing, you need to ask God for help, and you need to seek God’s face and not leave until you break through. And God will tear down that wall to get to you, but YOU have to give Him FULL permission. Every single wall has to come down not just the front wall. You know what? God delivers on His promises. Trust in God, tell your dry bones to Hear the Word of the Lord and arise. Of course that came from Ezekiel 37 so go read it. 🙂
Matthew 6:7 – And when you pray, do not use vain repetitions as the heathen do, for they think that they will be heard for their many words……. Lets dive deep (sorta)…
During worship that verse use to be me. Before I was delivered…. I would say thank you Jesus over and over again, not knowing what else to say. (the spirit knows all things and what to pray for) So it’s safe to say I wasn’t in the spirit or wasn’t listening which makes sense because I had a spirit of pride. The spirit of pride will blind you spiritually. I now see that was wrong, my eyes were open . Not because God just showed me, but because I was actively seeking His face. I kept seeking and still kept getting the same answer “there are walls up hindering my walk with God”. I got to the point where I didn’t want to offend God anymore, so I was going to quit going to worship nights. (how stupid is that? Running from the same thing you’re seeking)
but I didn’t I made my mind up to not leave that place until the walls came down. Guess what? The walls came down. I was lost in the Spirit, weeping. Now I feel so much more freedom, freedom in God, freedom from the world. Now I have so much more to praise God for than just to say thank you Jesus over and over . Praise God!
For he that soweth in his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting. And let us not be weary in well doing: f-or in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. Galatians 6:8-9
Change your legacy, change your family’s legacy and run this race with everything that is within you and most importantly don’t look back.
The problem with most people is that they get bored seeking and quit, they think it’s taking to long, they think, “I’m good”. Woe to you! It doesn’t matter how long it take.